Well we are slowly but surely getting it all done...had to fill out some new paperwork since the previous one's had expired. Just finished up with tb testing for the guys. Remaining papers should be ready by Thurs. I think that will be it....unless of course we've missed something!
I'll have to be honest there are days I get really discouraged. I think is this ever going to happen? Is it all just a wasted effort? We've been doing this for so long it seems....Then my heart reminds me, "She is yours." God placed it on my heart, our family is in agreement, so I know that He will fulfill His every promise. We can't give up. I don't want to give up...I just want it to BE ALREADY. You know what I mean? I guess it has a lot to do with that whole control thing....usually I have a plan. Usually I'm busy working it and this not so much...There really can't be a set plan when God is in the driver's seat.
Take for instance the physical healing of my heart. We prayed and prayed for healing. Praise God it came. Not only did it come but He healed my heart completely. Not just the electrical issue and the heart failure but he healed the 3 valves I was having problems with, too. See those hadn't even been addressed, they were too concerned with the other. Then here comes God and what does He do but do excedingly more than what we could have ever imagined. I believe that is what He will do with the adoption process too, but it's just taking much more longer than I anticipated! LOL!!! But you know, I'm thankful. I really am. I am so thankful for His amazing grace and mercy. Even when I question Him. He remains Sovereign.
So we will wait and continue to praise Him. So with joy and hope I will stand firm in knowing my God is there. He's making the paths straight and preparing the way. He is a God of right on time. She will be with us right on time. His time.
